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Permanent Linkby NicS on Mon Nov 21, 2022 1:45 pm

Haven't done one of these since 2014! I write to you from my job, in Boston! I am stable and fairly happy, in a good relationship and got wonderful friends who know and support our DID. Things are good! So yes, it does get better, if you work on yourself. Boop!

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A Very Strange Day, by C.Nic & Nic S

Permanent Linkby NicS on Wed Jan 01, 2014 9:17 am

My brother brought some girl home, making me fear that he was having sex with her and was no longer a ######6 virgin. This topic is extremely sensitive for us, mainly because I don't like thinking about my brother having sex. Most people. They don't like thinking of their parents having sex, but that doesn't bother me since my parents hate each other and rarely ever do anything contact wise except spit and growl at each other, much less have sex (although spitting and growling does make for good genital contact warmup.)

I've had sex with one girl in my life, the whore Kelsey, who recently blew her car payment on marijuana. Idiot. I had sex with her about 10+ times over a period of 3-4 months in early-to-mid 2011. I loved having sex with her, because it felt ######6 great. And I didn't feel horny afterwards for 2 whole days, an issue I had had in the past since I was horny basically every second, primarily because, surprise, I was a rape victim. Hell, I'm ######6 horny right now.

So my brother walks in with some girl from the Air Force, who loves our dog, and then I carry a generator out of the back of the truck into my mom's garage. Then they leave.

Many hours later, I have a conversation with my mother. Apparently the Pastor of the church I have attended since I was a fetus is in bankruptcy because the Pastor, in a foolish attempt to protest his 8% interest rate! refused to pay the mortgage on the church. Because of this, my mother told me many of the flock have run to other herds, leaving behind only the super loyal, the gullible and the plain stupid. We had a wonderfully stimulating conversation about that, how the school system failed both myself and my brother, and my loneliness at how my brother, the shy one in our family, has had 2 girlfriends while Kelsey ended up dumping me so she could have sex, guilt free, with a third or forth guy and then narrow it down to just one or two guys.

I have been obsessed with 2 things lately:
1. Insisting on my virginity, which,
A. I don't have, Nic and those guys do. TK and I had sex with Kelsey, and everyone else was out cold.
B. Feels like a forced act, since rape victims, in my opinion, don't really count the rape itself as being a sexual experience where virginity was lost, as much as it was stolen.
2. Worrying about sex in the future.

I told a lot of people I had a date Thursday night when, really, I was using the wifi at Barnes and a Noble for 5 hours on Craigslist trying to set up an orgy that didn't happen. This is why I bought a sex doll, so I could expend mine and TK's animalistic instincts and desires whenever we were home, without the heartbreak that followed Kelsey stealing our virginity and using us like a rapist would. The reason we hate Kelsey so much is that what she did was seduce us, and in doing so pleased herself ensured we were great at ######6, and had a good sized cock, slightly bigger than average. Also, she helped Nic discover he was DID by forcing him to admit it on a FB message, and she totally raped us over that sex period, plus the last two sexless years where we were so distraught by not having pussy anymore that we will sometimes relapse and waste 5 hours at a Barnes and Noble using the wifi to get laid through Craigslist, which only worked one time, around Christmas 2012. And we don't count that because we couldn't stay hard, so every time we penetrated this fat woman vaginally, it slipped out like a Marx brother on a banana peel, although this was humiliating and the Marx brothers are legends.

I ######6 hate Kelsey for getting me on to ######6, and if I had the money, I'd have prostitutes on standby for whatever, whenever, 24/7. The second I'm done writing this I'm going to masturbate and go to bed. But it's no use, because when I wake up I just get horny again.

The only answer is a companion who understands, and I feel I can't have that because were DID. That the second I have a girlfriend, she will hate me because I am mentally ill. And, at this...

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RIP Tom Clancy by C & Nic. The New Silk Road by C.Nic

Permanent Linkby NicS on Thu Oct 03, 2013 3:29 am

So, first things first, Tom Clancy died today. This is a huge ######6 blow to me because I loved Splinter Cell with all my heart. When our mom bought my brother and us an original Xbox in 2004 (Might have been 2005, a pretty important detail for us, FYI), it came with two games: Forza Motorsports and Splinter Cell. And although I hated it at first, because I couldn't wrap my head around the story and it's serious, detailed and somewhat intense political drama world, I loved the action and played that game so much my mom and my dad began to worry that I was never going to have friends.

Splinter Cell helped shape my ideas with storytelling, writing and detailing every aspect of something that I could. I loved the games, and so I bought the first book in the 6th grade, which was filled with sex and violence and kidnapping and torture, I loved it. I still remember making my friends (See? Told ya, mom) cringe as I read the following line:

"They took turns lathering each others bodies, pausing every now and again to kiss. He became arounsed, and she gripped him with a slippery had. 'Oh no,' Eli said, exhausted, 'I'm raw."

Bam. Technically, that book was David Mitchell, but I have heard that DM was just a pen name used by Clancy so he could write books about other things he was interested in without the Clancy name weighing down early speculation, much in the same way J.K. Rowling released her mystery novel "The Cuccoo's Calling" under the name "Robert Galbraith". Clancy was a juggernaut, who made history with one of the first million dollar book deals (I believe it was $85 Million in 1998) with Penguin for exclusivity rights, as well as taking the risk of starting Red Storm Entertainment, which turned his books into now world famous games such as Ghost Recon, Rainbow Six and, my favorite, Splinter Cell, under the French Publisher Ubisoft, and the "Tom Clancy" brand (Yet another famous, multimillion dollar deal). Clancy, being the amazing military writer he was, used his amazing sense for detail and tactic to formulate some of the best business deals of our era, in which we all profited. Do not mistake me when I say his loss is profound for me, as I will surely miss him and his work.

-NicS
-C.Nic
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Silk Road got shut down today, prompting everyone to be depressed for about two hours then realize there's still Black Market Reloaded, Sheep Market and that Russian website where you can set up a trade in some abandoned building somewhere. However, Silk Road was, by far, the largest and most well known, so the take down is still depressing for many since it had become a home for many "Addicts" for 2 years.

Still, with the recent revelation that Dread Pirate Roberts is, unsurprisingly to anyone who frequented the forums or simply visited the website, a libertarian in his late 20's. I trust the FBI did a thorough investigation with the myriad of departments involved with this case (The IRS and Homeland Security were involved in this, for ###$ sake!), but if you want his name, look it up. All the details from the affidavit add up and truly describe DPR: a reasonable, seemingly sane 20-something who just took his ideology and built a company with it, that has now been destroyed because it's "Illegal". Thanks, Obama.

I think Silk Road is coming back, and soon, too. The affidavit says there was $1 billion in sales in its lifetime and $80 million in commissions straight to staff. That's Escobar level $#%^. So there's no way they don't let that fall. But also, Ellien Ormsby, allthingsvice.com and badass journalist who knows this $#%^ better than anyone else, suggests there have been 4 DPR's, based off the Pricess Bride character that one guy makes his money and passes the title when he's done. And all the evidence suggests they simply have the original creator, a genius still, but not the current DPR who has control. The current DPR could rise at...

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I totally just figured something out, by C.Nic

Permanent Linkby NicS on Sun Sep 29, 2013 4:03 am

The reason I still hate Kelsey is because she totally used me for sex. She stole my virginity, my first kiss, first pretty much everything sexual (that I consented to), then just moved on.

She admitted recently she was having sex with me because of her rape fantasies. She used a ######6 rape victim to live out rape fantasies. That's why I'm so ######6 pissed off at her.

Look, I'm not going to lie, I got ######6 addicted to pussy. I missed it so much it brought my GPA down from a 4.2 to a 1.7 in 2 semesters (6 months at CWI, basically). But I loved her, too. And maybe she didn't know about the rape with us, but she did know we are DID. And she used us, then ######6 abandoned us when we needed her the most: to not only ween us off pussy, but also help us figure out why I was so horny all the time and why she had rape fantasies.

Only took 2 years, but I finally figured it all out. Kelsey is a whore that I am still in love with because of my love of sex, and her being my first sexual partner. Beyond that, I think we do good together. But she is such a ######6 moron about most things in her life that I just need to ######6 move on from her. Forget the fact that she abandoned me at the worst possible time. Forget that she desires multiple men at the same time, dating not only me but a boyfriend and supposedly 2 other guys at the same time I was ######6 her, but just focus on the fact that she knew I was mentally ill, and she knew one of the causes had to be sexual abuse, and used that to get off.

###$ Kelsey. If you see her in the streets of Boise, ID, you tell her to ###$ off for me. I'm moving the ###$ on, finally, in a new place at a great job. ###$. Her.

-C.Nic

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G4's Nightmare by NicS

Permanent Linkby NicS on Tue Sep 10, 2013 3:13 am

About a year ago, Esquire Magazine had announced the acquisition of G4, a TV channel based around 4 things: Games, Gear, Gadgets and Girls (4 G's, hence G4). Because of this, two of my favorite shows from my teenage years, Attack of the Show (AOTS) and XPlay, ended their years long, thousands of episodes run to make way for the oncoming manly shows about travel and wine tasting in leather jackets or whatever. Along with this, Neal Tiles, then CEO, retired a little before the takeover was announced. I like Mr. Tiles. He had a thing where the community would ask him questions and he would honestly answer them. It was great.

On top of that, during commercial breaks, G4 had little moments like "Viral Video Classics", which showed quick 5-10 second clips of truly legendary viral videos, such as Komodo Dragon Throwing Up, Little Superstar, Lonelygirl15, that biker who tries to land on the roof but misses and cracks his ribs. Then there were things such as Urban Dictionary Presents the word of the day, where you'd get the definition for "Edgehog", or someone who takes up the edge of the seat on a bus, in a theater, a church or Super Smash Bros. Melee, or a guy named KnuxSonic would have a quick panel discussion with other viewers on what they just saw on a show, or Morgans Minute, where Morgan Webb, co-host of X-Play, would give her thoughts on whatever was bothering her about gaming. Or just other cool stuff. It made me want to watch commercials, because there was always a surprise hidden in there. Honestly, if I ran a TV network, it would be like G4: Excelllent programming and engaging commercial breaks. I never wanted to turn it off.

So I ran a public access station for 2 months in March and April, 2013. Treasure Valley Community Televeision, or TVCTV (Although I hear they're changing the name soon to Idaho Open Media Center or some stupid name like that. It will always be my TVCTV.) Well, not really ran it, but, lets face it, I knew what I was doing. And I had responsiblities from the board of directors. And I was great at my job. I skipped classes just to help out there, and it was all volunteer work. When people are fighting for paid internships, I get confused. I'm all for paid internships, but honestly, I'm fine with not getting paid if the place is a place I genuinely look forward to working at at going to. They gave me a key to the whole building and a code to get inside and turn off the alarm. The building was all mine whenever I wanted it. And even though I had volunteered there on and off for 4 years, I had been heavily interested in video production since I was seven, studying everything I could from then on. It was and still is a dream job.

I know what I am talking about. Running a station is hard, but so, SO rewarding IF you do it right. We could not do it right, for the simple reason that people just weren't tuning in, or coming in to make programming. I did what I could to get the word out that the station wasn't a dilapidated homeless hellhole and was actually a functional building. But the management (AKA Alex the old hippie manager) was so terribly #######5 that she forced all the paid staff off the roster. It became volunteer run because of her mismanagement. Tens of thousands of dollars in the hole because of her. I'm basically saying ###$ her, because she did a terrible job of managing a place I love and knew it.

Anyway, getting back to G4: the problem all cable channels these days face is programming. I'm focusing on G4 here, but it really is a universal problem. You are expected to fill 24 hours a day with quality programming.

There are, in my view, 4 main blocks that people really care about: Morning, Daytime, Prime Time and Late Night, followed by the one no one cares about, Infomercial Alley. Now Infomercial Alley can eat up the time between, say, 1 AM to 6 AM, so it's not a problem, and you could also put anything in there without FCC oversight, because of the Safe Harbor laws,...

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