My mom and I have established that I have 2 years left in our home before we are expected to live on our own. It seems fair, but also EXTREMELY scary. Heres why:
1. The prospect of living on my own is extremely petrifying to me. I cannot fathom any scenario where me being completely independent is a good one long-term. It is really scary to me.
2. I have no real job. I work for my mom, for basically $100 a month. I looked around for 2 years and no one would hire me, so I just gave up. The guy that was helping me with my resume stopped contacting me, and from there it just seems no one wants to let me work for them.
3. With those two things in mind, I also have to deal with the idea that at the end of 2 years, she'll just kick me out just because "Oops, times up. Bye Bye". Her adopted son, Darrell, told her that I'm just a moocher, which I am not. I am not like some teenage girl that demands everything be given to her just because she exists. I know I have to work at it, whatever it may be. And yet, even with that, I have NO chance in hell of getting a job because blah blah blah. In truth, other kids have gotten jobs... but then I think about who has gotten them, and the list goes like this:
-Kelsey: Kohls. Works 3-5 hours a week.
-Matt: Toys r Us: Works 4 hours a week.
-Katie: Works part time. Presuming 12 Hours a week.
And that's all I know off the top of my head! Honest, these are the only three I could think of on my own. I had to look on Facebook to find these people I knew from High School. These are ALL THE KIDS I GRADUATED WITH WHO CURRENTLY HAVE JOBS:
-Jason: National Guard: 2 weekends a month, for 8-14 hours total.
-Sydney: "Food Prep" at Bar & Grill. No idea what her hours are.
-Chris: Dairy Queen: 14 hours a week.
-Maritza: Temp job at Fireworks Stand: 7 Hours a week for 4 weeks.
-Chaz: Temp job as annoying guy who asks you to watch a video at the mall. 4 Hours min., 12 hours max a week.
-Joe: Idaho Pizza Company, no info on hours. I'm presuming 14 Hours a week min.
-Tyler: Personal Trainer at Idaho Athletic Club. No idea, again.
-Max: 68W in Army. Might be full time.
-Christina: Vans. No idea.
-Seth: "Elder" for the Mormon Church. Full time, I presume. (?)
-Samantha: Sandwich maker at some generic airport shop. Part time.
-Corden: Journeys, part time. I know this because he is an idiot, working for a stupid store.
-Britini: Tumble Time. Part time, definitively. No one works full time at Tumble Time.
-Alice: Rue21. Part time.
-Ceaser: Fred Meyer, part time.
-Natalie: Sonic Drive in. Part time.
Now, I am friends with everyone who has a Facebook account that I graduated with, and I do keep contact with some folks who don't have one. The graduating class was 400 kids. Subtracting all the kids with jobs (listed above) minus 400 equals 382 people. So that's still 382 people unemployed.
Its not that were lazy, or that were jaded. Its that the people who are hiring see the idiots who are jaded from looking and think that's all of us: Selfish, arrogant and rude. And that's simply not true. Granted, sometimes this is a valid excuse, like when the nearby Dairy Queen fired its whole staff and rehired in a day because the old staff couldn't do anything right, and didn't care! But that's only one time, now two weeks ago. Now when i go through the drive-thru, I have my food in 2 minutes, compared to the "I know it will take a while, so lemme just shut my engine off" BS I had to deal with before.
But I honestly do believe the only reason I haven't gotten a job so far is because of prejudice against my generation. I hate them too, I really do. I hate how my generation became defined as the "Texting behind the wheel" and "Crazy person on Facebook" generation. But thats not all of us.
The other reason is because of the "im not wring pants lol XD" stuff being tied to all of us, people think were unskilled. Its completely untrue: I outrank many middle aged men on knowledge relating to broadcasting and technical equipment. But the fact is that until my generation gets it that we all hate what they love (Terrible music, Kardashians, etc.), most of my classmates will be jobless for a while.
So I have 2 years to find a job in a non-existent market where the open position is filled instantly by an old timer with a family to feed. They get preference because of age and experience. I can live with that, because its not just them. And I don't want to become a selfish person where the job is only serving me alone, but at the same time, if I don't get a job soon, I may just stop caring about other people all together. And thats the scariest thing of all, because without a human connection, all of us just lose it somewhere. I've seen it, and I don't want that to become me.
Hopefully I can get a job soon. Until then, I gotta work at what I have: College and my current $100/month job. I do like it and I do appreciate it. But time is flying by.
-NicS