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Depressing again and Army Drinking issues. C.

Permanent Linkby NicS on Wed Nov 30, 2011 5:59 am

My stupid ######6 @@@@@@@ mother won't stop ######6 yelling at us for no ######6 reason, and I'm ######6 sick of it. But we still love her. Still, for some reason now, she's just been a ######6 @@@@@@@.

My brother moved to Germany for army $#%^ a year ago, meaning he's still got 5 years left to serve, 2 in Germany and/or Afghanistan. Wherever the ###$ he goes, point is, he hates it. Sure, it may grow on him later, but right ######6 now he's just surrounded by american ###$ that are 19 and are in a country where the drinking age is 18. He tried drinking a few times. He realized what I've witnessed for 18 ######6 years: Its #######4, and a ######6 waste of ######6 time! But, NOOOO, he just had to do it. Y'know he said he would never drink one shot or anything, ever? The second he ######6 lands in Germany, JAGERMEISTER, #####&!!!

Now he doesn't drink. He's the designated driver for a bunch of ######6 Americans his age that only drink. Thats all they ######6 do. They drink... and drink.... and drink... AND THEY'RE 19!!! THEY HAVE NEVER BEEN DIVORCED OR ANYTHING! WHY THE ###$ ARE THEY ######6 DRINKING?! This is why the army is in the shitter, is because all the ######6 young recruits are sent off to far away lands, where the drinking age is, mm, 4, and barley get any $#%^ done! Then, when they get home, now alcoholics, they can't drink, because the drinking age is 21. My brother comes home in February (2012, geniuses), and will be home for 12 days. From what I've seen, that's the bare minimum allowed home. Now what ######6 19 year old is gonna drink his weight in Smirnoff every ######6 night for a year straight, and then come home to find out that he can't keep drinking, because NOW he's underage? Are you ######6 kidding me? What alcoholic EVER has lasted 12 days without a ######6 drink? Just plain cold turkey. What alcoholic has just stopped drinking, ever, and after 3 days of keeping a level head, masturbates himself into a stupor?

Now the average person might plan and possibly see this kind of problem. But if you drink every night (And from what I've seen, people who drink constantly are generally in some sort of constant hangover state by month 6), your only focused on the next ######6 drink. And on the flight over, maybe it'll hit someone that this pinot or whatever the ###$ they serve on flights these days, will be the last drink for 10-12 days. Minimum. They can't drink unless they steal the $#%^.

Do you see why my mom is worried? My brother had his last drink on his 19th birthday, which was near the end of May. He's now the designated driver. He sits there and watches these idiot 19 year olds drink. One of them is named "Dingus". No, I am not kidding. His ######6 name is "Dingus".

But now, this stress is being taken out on us. So, naturally, we passed the written driving exam right now. For those who don't know, the DMV has a basic 2-tier system in most states: take the written exam, which involves 40 questions about driving on the road and street signs, "If 4 people reach an intersection" sort of deals, and the driving test, where you drive with an instructor and get your ######6 license for acing it. I am trying to get my drivers license, which would allow me to drive wherever, whenever, and, most importantly, without my ######6 mom screaming "MERGE" on a one-lane, one-way street.

She is, without doubt, the 2nd biggest reason why we have DID. From K-half of 9th grade, the daily routine was wake up, go to school (Which was 3 blocks from our house), and get bullied to tears on a daily ######6 basis because we were "Weird". This was the #1 reason for our DID, and why we secretly hate most of our ######6 classmates. No one ever explained what the ###$ was weird about swinging on the monkey bars at recess, so we never ######6 knew. Then it was walk home. Enjoy our little quiet time for 2-3 hours, then the bitch (our mother) would come home and yell at us because of some guy saying something that got to her. The worst thing she did to J.R. (My brother in the army) was lock him on the porch in the rain for 30 seconds. Us? Beating us, slamming us against walls, scratching us, punching, kicking, yelling on a daily ######6 basis and just overall complaining about her great job because it was "Demanding".

Disclaimer: I have lived in this house my whole life. The idea of moving out or away scares the $#%^ out of me, mainly because I have no ######6 job and would die on the street of tuberculosis in a ######6 second. The house is 2 stories, but the rooms are small. Its not a problem at all, believe me. I love this town, and this house especially, and my mom does provide for everything. I am extremely grateful, and try to make it as obvious as possible. But every ######6 thing that goes wrong is my fault. If it involves the house, most of the time Nic just takes it and says "Sorry!", and we move on. But sometimes she says were doing "Back talk". No one in the history of Boise ######6 Idaho has ever explained to us what the ###$ back talk is, but if we were to wager, based on YEARS of experience, we would say its when they are wrong and you are right, then you prove they are wrong and you are right, they can't take it, think they're trapped in a corner, say "Back Talk", and hope it'll work. It never truly does.

Lately, her #######4 and stupidity have gotten so #######4 and stupid that I've begun fighting back more and more. I have yelled at her, literally yelled, 2x. I say literally because dumbasses of my generation tend to say "Yelled" when the word they're searching for was "Stern". Usually I have some witty comment veiling my contempt for her constant stupidity, but 2 or 3 days ago, we were driving to Wells Fargo to cash checks with our mom. We don't know the street signs well yet, so I asked her "Mom, where is Five Mile". Her response was "NO, I AM NOT PLAYING YOUR MANIPULATING MIND GAMES TODAY." So, I asked her again. "Mom, where is Five Mile". "I TOLD YOU NOT TO GO THERE." "I don't know where there is, I don't know where I'm headed". Keep in mind, were at a stop light. The correct answer was "Turn Left". Her answer was "I AM NOT PLAYING THIS ######6 GAME WITH YOU." "Gee, this is why men don't ask for directions..." That one nailed her. I'm proud of that one.

I go into wells Fargo and cash my check. $40 for raking leaves around town. I get back in the car and I'm doing a K-Turn when mom says "Your stupid games have gone too far", when I just ######6 screamed at her "I ASKED YOU FOR DIRECTIONS, YOU IDIOT. THATS IT. I DIDN'T SLAP YOU OR SADDLE YOU LIKE A DAMN SEX SLAVE, I JUST ASKED YOU, Mom, where is Five Mile, AND YOUR RESPONSE WAS I HAVE AN ATTITUDE PROBLEM AND I'M MANIPULATING YOU." She looked shocked. One second (literally) later, she took the keys out of the ignition and just left the car sitting in the middle of the street. I got out, she got out. She begins to walk towards the Doughnut shop, stops, turns around, leans against a pole and says "Apologize". I just began to walk home. ###$ her.

I yelled at her today, too. I really don't remember that one, I really don't. I had it a minute ago, but then I wrote about the Wells Fargo thing, and now... poof, nothing. I raked up Overland Rd. today from 1 till 3.

But I came into the kitchen, and (Again, I have no idea what the ###$ happened here, either), but she just starts going on about "YOUR TRYING TO MANIPULATE ME, AND YOUR GETTING A KICK OUT OF IT". Which I've never understood this logic: She thinks I'm manipulating her, but she never tells me how. She say's I insult Christianity too much, but proves my points while trying to disprove them. She has run through 4 or so employees in the last 10 years working for her. She cannot handle being wrong constantly. She HATES repetition, especially from me or objects hitting each other in moving cars, like something hanging from the center mirror hitting the glass in a 4/4 time scale. Schizophrenia runs in our family,but she denies she has it flat-out, saying that it "Skips a generation, so you or your brother probably have it". She has insane mood swings that I personally see as DID-ish (Like how Nic is the nice guy and I'm the funny prick asshole whoremonger?), but Nic just see's as bi-polar-ish or just plain Schizophrenic... and it is getting harder to deny.

So, with the ######6 longest blog post to date, why our mother is acting like such a stupid @@@@@@@: Her son was drinking in the army overseas, is away from home, knows he was depressed he wasn't home for the holidays for the first time in his life, and is worried about him going to Afghanistan. This has trigger either an alter OR Schizophrenia (somehow...), but either way, she's taking it out on me. And me fighting back and proving her wrong in a rational AND explosive way has taken her by complete surprise.
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I remember! Mom was going on about me being manipulative while I was driving to the Overland gig, when I started raising my voice louder and louder until I was shouting about how when someone else ###$ up, I paid, and it made no sense. She, being a monkey Christian, started doing what she always does when she's losing like the Red Socks (Yeah, I know nothing about Football, so I really don't know what it means, only that they suck apparently?), and started clapping mockingly and going "RAH RAH RAH RAH RAH!!!" louder and louder and louder, until I knew I had her worked up to where she could have a stroke. Then I just said, in the most normal voice I had (Because I really wasn't pissed, I just wanted to make my point) "You see, that's the difference between me and you. I have control over my emotions. You clearly don't." Her face was so red it could have been gushing blood and you wouldn't have been able to tell. Then, a minute of "Gee, how do I beat that" thinking later, she tries that smile when they know their beat but they think they have a card to beat YOU with, and says "How about if you go live with you father?" "Nope". And I just kept driving. My face was as neutral and "I don't give a ###$" as it could get, cause after 18 years of just her doing $#%^ like this, I know how to deal with immaturity VERY well. Its why I always get called in for child care work at the church. If she wan't manipulation, so be it. I'll give her a ######6 heart attack if that's what she wants. She wants to call me manipulative without any proof or give any reason for her #######5 behavior, other than "You live under my house, my rules" (Which we do obey. She's just so blinded with unfit rage it takes her a while to see it), then I will ###$ her up so much that by the end of it, people will mistake her for a Tijuana hooker. She's not a dumb person when it comes to business. Its just her personal life that she tends to ###$ up.
-C.Nic

NEXT BLOG: Will test to see if my college (CWI) is spying on this blog by exposing their giant gaps in security and how anyone could do anything they wanted with the Nampa campus.

P.S: If you have our cell number, don't bother texting for 3 days. My suddenly calm stunt has gotten it taken away for 3 days. So what if I paid for it, her house, her rules! Fine by me. I can work with this.

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