The Kelsey investigation is still going on, but I wanted to pause for a moment (We DO NOT WANT TO DO THIS ANYMORE. DON'T ASSUME I WANT TO DO THIS ANYMORE, YOU IDIOTS. WE DON'T EVEN OWN A GUN, LET ALONE A DECENT WEAPON) and reflect on our plans to commit a spree shooting. We don't want to now, but we want to show you why we wanted to.
We hated people. Well, I hated people. Most people. Hell, I still do. ###$ people. They're ######6 stupid.
And, as true as that is, if you keep thinking that, murder becomes a rational solution. We never got to the special crazy people hit where they see the Holocaust as this amazing event to be revered by anyone, or even to the point that we understand why Hitler did what he did. We (Okay, me) got to the point where, from 6th grade onward, we measured doorways, hallways, timed ourselves entering and going up staircases, going around corners, etc. in preparation for when we wanted to commit a school shooting. I wanted everything to be perfect when we finally did do it. (We never did)
I stopped doing that in the 11th grade, and even then, all I really did was have a massive panic attack in front of my P.E. class on April 20th (Columbine Massacre). The real reason I wanted to kill so many people was I wanted to go down in history as the guy who killed more people than the Columbine killers. Then Cho killed all those people at Virginia Tech, and it seemed like a wash.
So, every once in a while, I say in my head (And the other guys hear it, by the way, they don't care anymore cause they know I'm not ever going to do this) "2 guys on the left, one girl on the right, security guard up ahead, around the corner, 2 more", and just keep this going, so that if I wanted to start shooting people I could... even though I couldn't, cause, AGAIN, I DO NOT OWN A GUN AND DO NOT PLAN TO IN THE IMMEDIATE FUTURE.
I have just always wanted to get that off my chest. Maybe I'll talk about why later. Until then, Nic is finishing his investigation, and, frankly, I'm more interested in what he's finding than talking about my feelings. But, since this Seattle shooting happened, and, before this, those 4 kids were killed a few months back in the school cafeteria, I have just been meaning to let people know.
This is just my thing, the other guys just accept it as "My weird thing". We all have one. Zack's obsession with Helvetica, David's Boston accent, Nic's stupid hair, etc.
-C.Nic
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>>NEXT TIME: Kelsey investigation finale. Nic was bored and found some decent answers. So I'll be happy I will have answers, and you'll be happy its over.