I'm still attempting to make something happen by way of online dating. It's rough. I've contacted about eight women so far, and received one reply - an automated 'polite refusal'. The other emails dropped into a black hole. I write custom emails to each women I message, and I think hard before I write. It's really discouraging to put in all that effort and not hear anything back, not even a 'sorry not interested'.
I have a feeling my profile is part of the problem. My profile is honest. Read between the lines, and it says I'm a loner. I'm an atheist, and in the religious section state so. Living in the Midwest as I do, that is going to be a real deal-breaker for many people. I think that many people, women especially since they have so much choice, come to the table with a bag full of deal-breakers. I don't think people generally do that in real life. At least, not as bad.
I'm not getting any views on my profile. There was a burst of views when I joined, but then it dropped off. It makes me feel unattractive. I have had more unhappy moments in the past three weeks than in the past five years combined. Why? Because I accepted my isolation for a long time, and therefore didn't generally feel lonely; but now that I'm exploring the possibility of being with someone, I feel lonely. It's an awful feeling.
I have not given up. I need to remember to keep myself out there. I know there's someone out there for me. The trouble is finding her. But, the clock is ticking. I wish I had done all this 15 years ago.