Wednesday 11 January
32 days sober
RR 90%
God,
Grant me the serenity to accept the things I cannot change,
The courage to change the things I can,
And the wisdom to know the difference.
Amen
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God, make me an instrument of thy peace!
That where there is hatred, I may bring love.
That where there is wrong, I may bring the spirit of forgiveness.
That where there is discord, I may bring harmony.
That where there is error, I may bring truth.
That where there is doubt, I may bring faith.
That where there is despair, I may bring hope.
That where there are shadows, I may bring light.
That where there is sadness, I may bring joy.
God, grant that I may seek to comfort, rather than to be comforted.
Seek to understand, rather than to be understood.
Seek to love, rather than to be loved.
For it is by self-forgetting that one finds.
It is by forgiving that one is forgiven.
It is by dying that one awakens to Eternal Life.
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God, give me the power to quieten and calm my mind so that I can hear your will. Please direct my decision making at all times, because my previous game plan for living that I came up with myself has produced disastrous results in terms of my happiness and peace of mind. I want you to do my thinking for me, I do not want to analyse decisions in life any more using my own intellect and thinking.
I offer my work and effort to carry out your directions but please allow my mind to hear your broadcasting beacon which I know is in my soul, which I will always be able to hear if I can only quieten the static and noise of my own ruminations.
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Remember for today:
Giving the world 5 free passes to be wrong in advance today.
As you go feelings inventory/awareness.
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Forgot to set an alarm today and for 5-10 minutes lying snoozing in bed after I woke up I felt quite vulnerable. Dreams can put me into quite a triggered state. My resolve to stay sober will hopefully naturally go back up to 100% over the course of the day but I want to do all I can as well so I am going to two 12 step meetings today. I also engaged in a small amount of gossip at work yesterday. It was nothing really bad but someone asked me something about someone who wasn’t present and I just didn’t think for long enough before responding and could have made a nicer response. My rule in recovery is when you are going to say something about someone else, imagine they are standing right next to you listening before you say it.