Tuesday 31 January
52 days sober
RR 70% - danger!

God,
Grant me the serenity to accept the things I cannot change.
The courage to change the things I can.
And the wisdom to know the difference.
Thy will, not mine be done.
Amen
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Remember for today: Keep repeating “God’s will” in your mind – ALL the time!
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God, give me the power to quieten and calm my mind so that I can hear your will. Please direct my decision making at all times, because my previous game plan for living that I came up with myself has produced disastrous results in terms of my happiness and peace of mind. I want you to do my thinking for me, I do not want to analyse decisions in life anymore using my own intellect and thinking.

I offer my work and effort to carry out your directions but please allow my mind to hear your broadcasting beacon which I know is in my soul, which I will always be able to hear if I can only quieten the static and noise of my own ruminations.
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God, make me an instrument of thy peace!
That where there is hatred, I may bring love.
That where there is wrong, I may bring the spirit of forgiveness.
That where there is discord, I may bring harmony.
That where there is error, I may bring truth.
That where there is doubt, I may bring faith.
That where there is despair, I may bring hope.
That where there are shadows, I may bring light.
That where there is sadness, I may bring joy.

God, grant that I may seek to comfort, rather than to be comforted.
Seek to understand, rather than to be understood.
Seek to love, rather than to be loved.
For it is by self-forgetting that one finds.
It is by forgiving that one is forgiven.
It is by dying that one awakens to Eternal Life.
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It was great to meet with my Sponsor last night and discuss Step work. I’ve been getting to a lot of meetings but it really brought home that I need to find the time come hell or highwater to DO the WRITTEN stepwork and really go all out to make progress through the steps. The steps are something everyone should be working all the time, it’s sort of like the face of a clock 1-12 rather than a staircase 1-12. However, I do think the first run through of the steps is absolutely critical as that’s when you move from belief in a higher power to faith in a higher power. That’s when you have your personal experience of God, when you personally see the evidence of God so once you work the steps a 2nd time you KNOW the power of God, you don’t just believe it. It was great meeting with my sponsor last night because it filled me with a lot of hope and I think hope is so important also.