Thursday 9 February
Clean since date: Fri 3 February
RR 80%
God,
Grant me the serenity to accept the things I cannot change.
The courage to change the things I can.
And the wisdom to know the difference.
Thy will, not mine be done.
Amen
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Doesn’t matter what I think.
Doesn’t matter how I feel.
It matters what I DO.
Don’t tell others in the 12 step fellowship what you think today.
Don’t tell others in the 12 step fellowship how you feel today.
Tell others in the 12 step fellowship what program work you’ve done today.
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Remember everyday: Keep repeating “God’s will” OUT LOUD as much as you can. Even if you can only whisper or mouth it. Failing all that say it in your head but whatever the case constantly keep saying it!
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God, give me the power to quieten and calm my mind so that I can hear your will. Please direct my decision making at all times, because my previous game plan for living that I came up with myself has produced disastrous results in terms of my happiness and peace of mind. I want you to do my thinking for me, I do not want to analyse decisions in life anymore using my own intellect and thinking.
I offer my work and effort to carry out your directions but please allow my mind to hear your broadcasting beacon which I know is in my soul, which I will always be able to hear if I can only quieten the static and noise of my own ruminations.
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God, make me an instrument of thy peace!
That where there is hatred, I may bring love.
That where there is wrong, I may bring the spirit of forgiveness.
That where there is discord, I may bring harmony.
That where there is error, I may bring truth.
That where there is doubt, I may bring faith.
That where there is despair, I may bring hope.
That where there are shadows, I may bring light.
That where there is sadness, I may bring joy.
God, grant that I may seek to comfort, rather than to be comforted.
Seek to understand, rather than to be understood.
Seek to love, rather than to be loved.
For it is by self-forgetting that one finds.
It is by forgiving that one is forgiven.
It is by dying that one awakens to Eternal Life.
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Yesterday I updated this journal in the morning and made 2 outreach calls which included calling my sponsor (speaking to 1 person). At lunchtime yesterday I made about 7 outreach calls, didn’t get through to anyone but left 2 voicemail messages. Listened to AA speaker tapes for about 1h 10 mins total. Did about 30 mins of stepwork. Did not attend a meeting yesterday. Sent a text to my sponsor in the evening updating him of what stepwork I did.