Thursday 19 January
40 days sober!
RR 100% (but emotionally disturbed)
God,
Grant me the serenity to accept the things I cannot change.
The courage to change the things I can.
And the wisdom to know the difference.
Amen.
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Remember for today:
Giving the world 5 free passes in advance to be wrong.
Turn it over to God!
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Horrible day at work yesterday. Did people do things wrong to me? Yes, but I also could have handled things better myself in which would have led to me feeling better and less stressed. With my addiction, the enemy is within. What I really want to emphasise to myself each day, what I want to keep I the forefront of my mind, is that I have handed my will, my decision making and all my intellectual thinking over to God. So in EVERY situation where thinking/choices are involved I just need to calm myself. If I am talking to someone and I need to stop and stay silent for 10 seconds before answering then just do it. I can umm and err if necessary. But I just need to calm myself and consult God. By this I mean sort of seeing what my “gut feeling” says to do. Before I started a 12 step program and going to meetings I knew this as my “poker decision”, a sort of rational broadcasting beacon to tune into that you know will guide you down the best path.
Also, 40 days sober wooooo!