Sunday 29 January
50 days sober!
RR 30% - danger!

God,
Grant me the serenity to accept the things I cannot change.
The courage to change the things I can.
And the wisdom to know the difference.
Thy will, not mine be done.
Amen
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Remember for today: Keep repeating “God’s will” in your mind – ALL the time!
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Well as you can see from the very low resolve rating above, I feel in much danger today in terms of acting out. I woke up in the night and that’s when I felt most triggered. Got a good action plan though for today. Meeting some friends this morning. Then HAVE to get to a meeting. Also planning to call my sponsor and do as many outreach calls – and explain how triggered I felt last night in the night and how close my mind was in terms of planning to act out. Also going to do some written step work today that my sponsor wanted me to do. Also important that I keep busy today and don’t try to engage my inner addict in any kind of intellectual debate or argument about whether I should act out or not because my addict always wins them. Only action can save me!