Sat 4 February
Clean since date: Fri 3 February
RR 100%
God,
Grant me the serenity to accept the things I cannot change.
The courage to change the things I can.
And the wisdom to know the difference.
Thy will, not mine be done.
Amen
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Remember everyday: Keep repeating “God’s will” OUT LOUD as much as you can. Even if you can only whisper or mouth it. Failing all that say it in your head but constantly keep saying it!
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Acted out yesterday (paid for sex). Like the last time, it’s counter-prodcutive to stew on it and dwell on it feeling guilty so into action again! God is telling me that I need to push other people harder in the program down the 12 steps, asking them how many meetings they go to, asking them what actions they have taken for recovery and spirituality that day. I can’t worry about treadinbg on egg shells or affecting someone’s pride. I know I want other people to push me harder down the 12 steps etc. and I need to start thinking about helping other people in their recovery more. I think it will help me be less self-centred and less thinking about myself.
So I’ll start here. If YOU’RE reading this and are fighting an addiction (fighting yourself), forget about Jeff for a minute. What have YOU done today for YOUR recovery?