Monday 30 January
51 days sober
RR 45% - danger!
God,
Grant me the serenity to accept the things I cannot change.
The courage to change the things I can.
And the wisdom to know the difference.
Thy will, not mine be done.
Amen
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Remember for today: Keep repeating “God’s will” in your mind – ALL the time!
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God, give me the power to quieten and calm my mind so that I can hear your will. Please direct my decision making at all times, because my previous game plan for living that I came up with myself has produced disastrous results in terms of my happiness and peace of mind. I want you to do my thinking for me, I do not want to analyse decisions in life anymore using my own intellect and thinking.
I offer my work and effort to carry out your directions but please allow my mind to hear your broadcasting beacon which I know is in my soul, which I will always be able to hear if only I can quieten the static and noise of my own ruminations.
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God, make me an instrument of thy peace!
That where there is hatred, I may bring love.
That where there is wrong, I may bring the spirit of forgiveness.
That where there is discord, I may bring harmony.
That where there is error, I may bring truth.
That where there is doubt, I may bring faith.
That where there is despair, I may bring hope.
That where there are shadows, I may bring light.
That where there is sadness, I may bring joy.
God, grant that I may seek to comfort, rather than to be comforted.
Seek to understand, rather than to be understood.
Seek to love, rather than to be loved.
For it is by self-forgetting that one finds.
It is by forgiving that one is forgiven.
It is by dying that one awakens to Eternal Life.
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Well managed to stay sober yesterday, still feel like my RR is low though. Just got to keep up my program, and stay sober just for today. The weather was really $#%^ and miserable yesterday which probably didn’t help and it’s not much better today. Got to hang in there, I know it won’t always be this hard to stay sober if I just keep working this 12 step program I’m on. Got to remember that the 12 steps are the answer to all problems and not make up my own answers when I find myself exposed to non-spiritual ideas during the week. The 12 steps have produced millions of miracles of sobriety from people who were powerless in regards to their addictions. So they aren’t a theory, you don’t look at them and think… “gee I wonder if these would be any good”…. instead you know “this $#%^ works”.