I am really annoyed because my mother never took the responsibility for me.
She kept on going about how young she was when she had me, but at the same time it looks like she isn`t willing to use her experience to make something better.
She knew what mother hood meant to her when she met my stepfather and yet she ignored it.
It can be hard to explain what i mean because it is something you would have to know about that person, and that can be difficult if you don`t know the person i am speaking about.
I have memories all the way back to how things used to be, i think the clearest memories are of how quickly things changed.
She claims that my dad was so young yet she marries a guy with no money, no job, no children, no experience with children, and knows almost nothing of her language.
She blindly follows him.
When i as much as open my mouth i get fire blazes and accusations...so no communication at all.
I am not allowed to speak my mind.
She is never to be criticised for her bad choices. And she never admits doing a mistake.
So frustrating.