I am a little pi**ed off today!
I had an appointment with someone, and she cancelled it at the last minute.
I know cancellation do occur but its more the nature around that acquittance that bothers me.
She has been going threw some bad times in her life and needs some support, i happened to be in the way for her quest of sympathy, and i am finding it hard to give it to her.
She complained to me that her boss was unsympathetic towards her when she told her that she had back problems. The boss made her work despite her problems and i told the boss how i felt about that.
The thing is that i get provoked because i don`t have much sympathy for my back!
I don`t have any family to take care of me, i don`t have anybody! So WHY should i take care of her?
I find her problems a liability for me and i wish i had a nice way to say it.
I find it difficult to "break up" with her because she happens to be the only friend i have.
So i am in some big problems.
Also i know that she has made agreements to me before that she never kept, she said she would phone me once, but then she never called me.
So i don`t understand why i should suddenly be so supportive?
I have lend her a back belt, heard her complaining about back pain and boss problems, i have sent an email to her boss complaining and written a letter for her job. She borrowed my pc and printer.
I can`t sound like the best friend? or maybe i do? ( i have a crappy keyboard just sayin!)
I feel as if her problems are hindering me to have a problem free life.
She is winning on this but i am using energy on something that gets me no where
She lives next door to me, so its a little to close to comfort!
Edit: 8okt
I sent an email to her trying to explain how i felt about this relationship in a nice way.
I still haven`t got any answer but maybe she hasn`t read it yet? I have tried to tell her about my problems.
I don`t think she gets it!? She feels entitled to my help.
I did try to help her for a while but then i understood that her problems were so big that i can`t get myself involved into them because of my own situation.
I have tried to explain it in a nice way, but like someone once said, "there is no good way to explain a bad thing". Rejection will always hurt no matter how you say it!