Some people don`t get the right up bringing so they need to help to fill in the gaps where their parents or guardians have failed.
For me that or those gaps are being filled by the people who surrounds me.
Its good in one way, it always feels good to know that you get something you need.
The problem is that so many things are broken and it can take so many people to fill that gap in me.
They are all nice meaning people but i have to pick them out of their qualifications.
One person might help me with one thing and another with something else.
It gets a little bit messed up this way, but hey! if your car has run out of gas you do what you have to.
I call it my mosaic picture.
My parents weren`t there for me as a child because of so many interferences and problems so that is why things got this way.
Don`t know if anyone can relate to what i mean?
The down pit is that one person might understand some of the feelings but not all, one person might have some of the same feelings and know what to do about it but lacks in others.
We all compare ourselves to others.
I once went along with a woman who had been adopted and i know that was because i had lost my father and had a emotional withdrawn mother, so i could relate to that feeling of being without parents.
Also she had brothers and sisters who could for me symbolize my half siblings. But then she never knew her biological siblings or if she had any, so there the similarities would end and envy/ignorance/indifference begin.(Not to criticise her, she was a nice person to me mostly, despite where her problems started to give me problems too).
Anyway i have crammed myself into a corner literally speaking and have to end it for today.
Never forget i am not i only see what others don`t