I`m gonna tell you! I had been going thru so much in that family, before i moved into the basement i had taken care of both of my half siblings ever since they were born.
I had changed their diaper s, feed them, guarded them, carried them, picked them up every day from nursery, and thought them everything i knew. I was the best baby sitter my mum had since all our au-pairs were short-lived.
She would hand the children in my care for longer or shorter periods. When they got a bit older i would take care of them when my parents were away for the weekend.
So not only did i have responsibility for them but also for the house.
After all that, my mother just turned her back on me because i had used the spray down in my basement.
Also my home work had suffered because until i was 12 i shared a noisy room with my half siblings. There was a television in the room that constantly would play cartoons, noises from toys and yelling in between my two half sisters. Very noisy.
And because i picked them up every day after school i also lost those hours after school for both recreation time with my friends and home work.
I had to look after them all the time.
Then my sister moved in with us and down into the basement, she had many problems with my stepfather so now i had yet another problem to handle.
And acknowledge the fact that she was my biologically sister on the top of going thru my adolescence which has its disturbances and challenges.
So again i was twisted mentally because i had to take care of her mental issues, she would cry every time she had a fight with my stepfather.
She got very close to me in that period and i felt as if i was living thru her.
In a way we were supporting on each other in those years.
She was new in the family since she had lived with my father since the divorce, and i was "expelled" from the family up stairs.. and her fights with our stepfather did not make my relationship with him any easier, so now my whole family was lying on my sisters shoulders.