I know today that most the things that has been going on inside my life was outside my control.
I know that there were few or little things that i could have said then that would have made any different outcome.
At the time most of these things happened i was too young to realize what i should do about them.
Solving problems takes a lot of knowledge and i didn`t have all that knowledge at that time.
I keep wishing that my friend had met someone who had or my neighbour or the dog for that matter!
Learning about the harshness in life is never a good experience, it can take years for those wounds to mend properly.
Sometimes they make me feel worn out and sometimes they can make feel stronger.
I remember "E" my friend giving me a letter before i went for one of my trips, she insisted that i didn`t open it until i sat on the plane.
Inside the letter was a card that said "Thank you for being such a good friend".
It touched every nerve part inside of me...
Death isn`t about life its about losing someone who mattered especially to me, maybe not the whole world read those words, and maybe the fat guy sitting next to me didn`t understand why my eyes became tear filled.
Without her in my life i wouldn`t have know what true friendship was about. Her spirit is always here with me.
I had friends before she came into my life who didn`t give a rats tail for my feelings, and here she was serenading me for only being her friend.
I haven`t been proud of myself for many things but that moment there she proved to me that i hadn`t been a f... up in my last friendship and that i still had something inside me that was worth sharing with others.
That is what this one person managed to tell me with such few words.
So i hope this letter inspires YOU! to give some of these words out to someone you love too, because they can mean a great difference in somebody`s head.
And they can be remembered for years even after the relationship is over.
So go out and love some more!
A bit ironic that we named the cat for Missy.....