oh I have a blog here. Maybe I'll use it more instead of venting on FB lol.

I crashed last night. It would have been bad if there was something to trigger me but there isn't by design. slept 18 hours last night+today. I feel as though I screwed up at the depression/bipolar support group that I go to by throwing out some information about a program to buy a house that is probably dated and no longer available. I don't know. I saw the facilitator talking to people outside and think she was talking about me. Maybe I'm having "ideas of reference"...

I have a feeling I'm about to lose a month or two.. I have a doctor's appointment Thursday.

I talked to a banker and need a minimum of 40 more points on my credit score to get approved of the housing program I'm going after. I got a secured credit card to help build my credit and put way too much money on it. I'm a little worried about my finances now but I should be ok. I think I'll have enough until next payday.

I asked my apartment managers if they could move a neighbor's mailbox. He has a physical disability and struggles to reach it. When I mentioned it to him he acted like it didn't bother him but I went on and mentioned it to the managers. He can hate me over it if he wants, I don't really care. His life will be a touch easier if they can move it. I don't know if they can but it was worth asking about.

I'm running out of things to do and am about to get really bored. I'm thinking I may need a touch stronger dosage of Abilify. I'll ask about it when I see my doctor on Thursday.

So yeah. First entry. I'm going to try to track my symptoms here. I just started 5 mg Abilify and 20 mg Paxil. I've been on it, I don't know, maybe 2 weeks now. Feeling a touch hypomanic. Slept 4 hours last night. Mood is good. Not feeling paranoia or anything like that beyond what's expected in my circumstance. I'm worried I had the radio too loud too early and woke up my neighbors. Spent some time cleaning my apartment which was much needed. I'm going to try to buy a house.