* Supposed to be Strong
But am oh so weak.

Can't seem to keep it together in counseling -
To not act completely crazy

Ay feel like Counselor hates my guts,
Thinks I'm insane

I don't know how to keep my cool when I am around her,
How to be a normal "person".

Lord knows what she thinks is wrong conmigo.
She Has No Idea I Have DID.


2 years, and she has no idea!

It's been a psycho circus keeping "my" cool,
Really-she just thinks I probably have more diagnosis than I do.

Wanting, dying to tell her,
But bound a la regla - pues atado.

*Drew a series of pics for her to guess what's wrong,
And how close she was! She's good.

But of course she gave up on guessing 'n got mad
Like any normal person would do

I wish for her to know, though,
And love me still

But she's a woman,
So it means she could never like me

Wishing I could be normal, keep my cool around her -
But everytime I see her it's a tug of war,

Between the desperation for her to know and help me,
And the need for her to reject and kick *me out of her life forever.

Strength isn't determined by how you feel, that's just a matter of our minds tell us. Strength is manifested in your actions. Perseverance is a prime example of it .

Just keep doing whatever it takes!

[quote="caughtinafray"]Strength isn't determined by how you feel, that's just a matter of our minds tell us. Strength is manifested in your actions. Perseverance is a prime example of it .

Just keep doing whatever it takes! [/quote]

Thank you!! Your encouraging words are helpful!!