I think I am spiraling
I am really low from a bipolar pov. I have had my meds upped but they have not kicked in yet so things are tough. I really hope they kick in as I dont want to get worse. I was so unmotivated yesterday I cancelled my CPN which is a really bad thing to have done. I hope I am not in the proverbial for it too.
I cant sleep - have been up since half one and still awake but unable to do anything as brain seems to have come to a standstill.
Really craving getting out of my face and imagining all the ways I could achieve this but none of them are good so I cant.
Really triggered from an event on Sunday that has pinged me into abuse mode
And trying to get on with it all
Hugs
Cracked