I went to church today and there was a very moving service, but I felt very selfish as for a lot of it all I could think about was how rubbish things are for me atm. I tried to bring it back to thinking obout the soldiers but I struggled.
I told home treatment team about it - they are the crisis team and they said not to beat myself about it as the point is I got dressed and made it to church. Plus I have just had a bath which is good.
Friday was an awful day which I am still reeling from but I am trying to not focus on it too much - when I do it just makes me feel bad.
I want to thank you all for your ongoing support atm, I really really appreciate it and am very thankful.
I hope you are all OK
Hugs
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