Thank you so much for all your support while I have been feeling wobbly and particularly Friay night. I appreciate it so much and you helped me not hurt myself - that means a huge amount as I have worked really hard to get where I am.
I have reasons not to do it and I preach about most of them on the SI forum, but a new one just hit me. I just received a phone call asking me to locum and I had to say no as I was off sick. I felt bad doing that as I wanted my old life back - well the work aspect of it anyhow.
If I am to get back to work I cannot go down the route of self harm. There are other reasons too, but this one is sticking with me atm so I am going to use atm mainly. Tho I wont forget the others too.
Thank you again for all your support.
I hope you are all well
Cracked