Dont read this if you dont want to read about someone feeling sorry for themselves.
I am in a really rubbish position atm.
I am low and feeling awful with suicidal thoughts at times and some very risky plans
When I tell ppl about the risky plans I get home treatment team and it goes in my notes
My psych uses my notes to write reports for the GMC and to inform my GMC supervisor who also advises the GMC and tells me if I can work or not (not atm).
If things get worse with the GMC it could go to a fitness to practise panel hearing where I could be suspended or struck off potentially.
My family value me for my job a great deal and I feel like a failure, goodness knows what would happen if I got struck off.
If I bring up the issue of drug addiction it will go in my notes and then the GMC will become involved.
My psych does not like my therapist and thinks in addition to BP I have BPD and I need to see PD services instead. If I go I lose my trusted therapist and the GMC take a very dim view on PD. However they also take a dim view on me ignoring my psych's advice.
I dont know if I have included everything but these are some of the issues I am currently dealing with. Things would certainly be a lot easier without the GMC.
Hope all are OK
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