Well last night was eventful. I've been feeling so triggered my therapist was calling at 9. At around 5 someone who I met in hospital was deposited at my door wailing and howling. I got her in and she calmed down. She is getting a lot of secondary gain from the behaviour she is exhibiting. I tried not to give in to that.
I tried to tell her that no one else can get her better than herself. Ppl can help and support her but she also has to help and support herself.
She ended up staying the night.
It was difficult to talk to my therapist then go back to talking to her and trying to sort this mess out when I was running over therapy stuff in my head.
Today has been a bit of a blur.
Part of me thinks that I should be kind and soothing to her when she cries but I just think she needs some tough love, the way she behaves. But this is easier said than done.
I feel like a mean person but then I guess I did take her in, calm her down, feed her and give her a bed for the night so perhaps I am not as mean as I think. Maybe it is better to tell her the truth than console her, but it makes me feel bad.
Sorry this is probably a lot of incoherant babble.
I hope ppl are having good (insert relevant time zone here).
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cos I seem to have left an important part of my brain somewhere,
somewhere in a field in Hampshire.
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Definitly not mean at all!
What impresses me is all that energy you have to not only help ppl everywhere but also yourself in the middle of it all while being triggered.
I have no idea how you manage that but I'm glad you are helping others and hope the rewards are great for you.
[color=#FF40BF]God will Give me nothing i cannot handle--i just wish he didn't trust me so much!
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Youre not mean not even close ^_^
but maybe the next time she comes to you, you'll have to then give her the tough love speech
Thanks Guys that means a lot
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