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Author:  CrackedGirl [ Fri Jun 24, 2011 9:16 am ]
Blog Subject:  Mutual Masturbation

Well not literally, but figuratively, was what we all were doing yesterday in the recording session. That woke you up didnt it. What I mean was everyone was making each other feel good. That is what I love about this particular music thing, it is such a supportive place where you can explore your creativity and let everything out. And to my surprise I am actually quite good at it!

I did music at school and uni but it was always very rigid and I rarely connected the idea of music being fun with music itself - except the band I was in, which was a pot hazed blast. I first wrote a song when I was in hospital for the first time. The OT and music worker handed me a guitar in my room and I poured out these words and melody. I still perform it now. It means a lot to me.

Spoke to my therapist. She was understanding but said I need to think through what I want as the end point of all this. If I ask about my abusers and report them then there would be police involvement and so on. They might be upstanding pillars of the community. But then I also feel they should not be allowed to do what they are doing to anyone else. She does not feel I am ready to delve to deep into this and does not think I should tell them about the abuse. But there is such a temptation to as I need to know about them. They have not contacted me yet so I have some more thinking time. Plus talking time with my therapist.

Sooooo music was a welcome diversion from all of this thinking.

That is it for now, I hope you are all doing OK.

Cracked



Comments

Author:  Existentialist [ Fri Jun 24, 2011 12:10 pm ]

Hello. I am not a musician but I think everyone has days where they are in neutral mode and just feel like they are going through the motions.

It is good that music provides a nice place for you to let go. I enjoy music--from the listening end. I never had the talent for playng or creating music. It is good that there are people with the gift of creating music, so those of us who can't can have something to enjoy.

Author:  CrackedGirl [ Fri Jun 24, 2011 12:22 pm ]

Thanks Existentialist :)

Cracked

Author:  RelapsedSaint [ Fri Jun 24, 2011 6:57 pm ]

Sounds like an awesome recording session; very glad you enjoyed it!

Author:  CrackedGirl [ Fri Jun 24, 2011 7:33 pm ]

Thanks Saint :D

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