Well not literally, but figuratively, was what we all were doing yesterday in the recording session. That woke you up didnt it. What I mean was everyone was making each other feel good. That is what I love about this particular music thing, it is such a supportive place where you can explore your creativity and let everything out. And to my surprise I am actually quite good at it!
I did music at school and uni but it was always very rigid and I rarely connected the idea of music being fun with music itself - except the band I was in, which was a pot hazed blast. I first wrote a song when I was in hospital for the first time. The OT and music worker handed me a guitar in my room and I poured out these words and melody. I still perform it now. It means a lot to me.
Spoke to my therapist. She was understanding but said I need to think through what I want as the end point of all this. If I ask about my abusers and report them then there would be police involvement and so on. They might be upstanding pillars of the community. But then I also feel they should not be allowed to do what they are doing to anyone else. She does not feel I am ready to delve to deep into this and does not think I should tell them about the abuse. But there is such a temptation to as I need to know about them. They have not contacted me yet so I have some more thinking time. Plus talking time with my therapist.
Sooooo music was a welcome diversion from all of this thinking.
That is it for now, I hope you are all doing OK.
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