I realised how far I have come just now with a random thing happening. Sebastian the naughty kittie slipped off my knee and as he fell cut the middle of my palm quite deep with his claw. In the past this would have made me want to cut more and in all likelihood I would have done - but now I am just annoyed it happened and I want it to heal quickly so it stops bugging me. I think this is a real step forward and am pleased with it. Saw my Uncle today as well and he said I am doing great which is really good to hear. He also gave me a stellar piece of advice when I was talking about med fiddling - "Don't fu*k with paradise" - so will remember that. So overall things seem to be pretty good - at least from the self harm pov and I think also from the mood pov on the whole. I thought if I blogged about it then it would remind me that things can be good if I slip up at any point, and also just wanted to note it.
Hope you guys are all well
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