Man am I tired. Saw Mr GMC Man today. He was not too encouraging. I still have to wait and wait to be stable enough to be ready to go back to work. At least another year - which is what he seems to tell me everytime I see him.

He also said that I would need to rethink my speciality as cannot go back to anaesthetics. Tho he has not ruled out Acute Med, even tho he seemed iffy about it. He said I had to accept I have a condition and the limitations that come along with that. I hate that. I dont want to have limitations.

My therapist is great. I texted her about how bad I was feeling about yesterday and she reassured me. Probably not good I am so dependent on her but atm that is how I feel.

TBH I can't wait til Greenbelt as it will be an opportunity to get away from everything for a bit tho of course I will miss you all

Sorry I have been on a bit of a downer, just a bit of a hard core few days and got occy health tom as well tho that should not be too bad.

Well I did manage to get some more chores done today so that is good. Need to start thinking about packing and stuff.

Hope you are all OK and thinking of anyone in Libya or who knows ppl there.

Cracked

Hi Cracked, I really should have checked out your blog before asking you all those questions in a pm lol!!! I reckon the stuff you have been working with lately had been tough stuff and being on a bit of a downer is where your mood needs to be - without any apologise - you are dealing with some major ptsd triggering atm and grieving/frustrated about somewhat heavy handed restrictions on working in your career. I know I would be happy to be treated by even an anaethetist with bp as long as they were stable, and I do get just how serious anaethetics are. Spelling sucks but you get my point.

Thank you so much hon that means a lot and thank you for being so supportive, I really appreciate it and hope I can return the favour.

Hugs

Cracked

you do every day x

im sorry to ready you havet been feel so well. i hope you start feeling much better soon. try be positive because your amazing. and jsut live and try not to think and analize to much you will get there im sore of it. it may take some time till your in a better spot. xo

Thanks so much LW and babygirl I really appreciate it, you are both stars.

Hugs

Cracked