I am sitting here looking at my arms and legs and I can see all the new cuts on them and I realise that my lapse appears to have turned into a relapse as I have many new ones and they are getting worse. The old addictive behaviour seems to be back again. And I soothe them with baby wipes. Why cant I just soothe my skin with baby wipes without having to throw cutting into the mix?
I know i should practise what I preach but I am struggling to do so atm. And I cant tell irl because the consequences of it will be bad, meaning I have to defer important medical tests. Despite knowing this I keep cutting.
My therapist asked me where the pain was. It made me cry but I did not have an answer. I am not sure where this has come from. I thought it was because I have been low, now I am not sure. Whatever it is, it is making me sad but I cant seem to find the willpower to stop it.
Hope you are OK
Mother, I can never come home again,2 Comments Viewed 62536 times
cos I seem to have left an important part of my brain somewhere,
somewhere in a field in Hampshire.
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is there anyone there, non-medical personnel, you can talk to? I don't think that any words over the internet would help you like someone who could hold you
Dx: Bipolar II Disorder, Rapid Cycling, Anxiety NOS
You are right hon - that would really help.
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