Today was a bad day.

I had a very difficult therapy session where I talked about a difficult day in terms of abuse stuff and it really hit home and connected with me in a way things have not done so much before. I really felt for the little girl who was hurt and I am having a tough time trying to get the mess it has left behind out of my head. I know sleep will help but I am not tired atm. I just feel like I have opened the door to a lot of mess.

Then I was meant to have repeat bloods and because of the significance of the tests I had got all worried about it so I got to the GP and the nurse told me they had booked me in for an appt at the wrong time of day so I have to go back on tuesday again to have them done. Plus it is a stupid thing but the nurse who is going to do it I used to sing in a choir with and she will see my scars.

Tomorrow is the anniversary of my Grandpa's death. I was 17. He was an amazing man and after my Dad died was like a father figure to me. I miss him hugely.

Sunday is the anniversary of my Dad's death (Grandpa was his Dad). I was 8. He was also amazing and I wish he was alive now so he could see who I have become.

I am spending Mother's Day with my Granny and she will be all sad understandably so I need to try to cheer her up. I have got her some nice flowers and a card so hopefully she will like that.

I think I will be glad to see the end of today.

Hope you are all well

Hugs

Cracked

Huge huge hugs hun

Im sure both your grandpa and dad would be super proud of the woman you have become. You are such a kind generous loving supportive person and they are all beautiful traits to have and i am sure they would be proud of all you have achieved and working to achieve.

Thinking of you huge hugs xxx

Thank you very very much hon - that means a huge amount

Huge hugs

Cracked

Sending hugs and love at this hard time.

I hope you and you gran manage to have a lovely day together inspire of date/anniversaries.
Sit and drink tea together. Tea always helps xx

Huge hugs Cracked

I think they would be very proud of you too.

Thinking of you

Lily

Thank you so much guys I really appreciate it. I have got back from Granny and had a nice time. She liked her flowers so that is good.

Huge hugs to you

Cracked