Today was a bad day.
I had a very difficult therapy session where I talked about a difficult day in terms of abuse stuff and it really hit home and connected with me in a way things have not done so much before. I really felt for the little girl who was hurt and I am having a tough time trying to get the mess it has left behind out of my head. I know sleep will help but I am not tired atm. I just feel like I have opened the door to a lot of mess.
Then I was meant to have repeat bloods and because of the significance of the tests I had got all worried about it so I got to the GP and the nurse told me they had booked me in for an appt at the wrong time of day so I have to go back on tuesday again to have them done. Plus it is a stupid thing but the nurse who is going to do it I used to sing in a choir with and she will see my scars.
Tomorrow is the anniversary of my Grandpa's death. I was 17. He was an amazing man and after my Dad died was like a father figure to me. I miss him hugely.
Sunday is the anniversary of my Dad's death (Grandpa was his Dad). I was 8. He was also amazing and I wish he was alive now so he could see who I have become.
I am spending Mother's Day with my Granny and she will be all sad understandably so I need to try to cheer her up. I have got her some nice flowers and a card so hopefully she will like that.
I think I will be glad to see the end of today.
Hope you are all well
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Huge huge hugs hun
Im sure both your grandpa and dad would be super proud of the woman you have become. You are such a kind generous loving supportive person and they are all beautiful traits to have and i am sure they would be proud of all you have achieved and working to achieve.
Thinking of you huge hugs xxx
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Thank you very very much hon - that means a huge amount
Sending hugs and love at this hard time.
I hope you and you gran manage to have a lovely day together inspire of date/anniversaries.
Sit and drink tea together. Tea always helps xx
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Huge hugs Cracked
I think they would be very proud of you too.
Thinking of you
"People are like stained-glass windows. They sparkle and shine when the sun is out, but when the darkness sets in, their true beauty is revealed only if there is a light from within.”- Elisabeth Kubler-Ross
Thank you so much guys I really appreciate it. I have got back from Granny and had a nice time. She liked her flowers so that is good.
Huge hugs to you
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