Missed a day. Just was not in the mood. I have been having some problems with triggers recently and yesterday the ppl from the mission got in touch too with some photos of us when we were there and the house I used to live in. I emailed back asking some general questions about things but did ask about my abusers without explaining why. I know it is not necessarily a good idea but i need to know.
Soooooo am also still in avoidant mood, phoned my CPN yesterday and told them I could not come today, and said I was fine. I dont want to see them atm. It is just pointless. Cracked stop being such a sulky teenager!
Have been thinking about holidays and getting away. Have not had a holiday for years. Hopefully going to see my sister next year in Cairo as long as it is safe. Also thinking about past holidays and nice places to be.
Which led me to thinking about those moments you have that you know you are never going to forget, the nice ones I mean. Like looking at the stars in South Africa whilst singing and sitting round a campfire, or watching a meteorite shower in the Rocky Mountains. Or hanging out with hippies at a wonderful backpackers, or night drives in the mountains in Australia. Plus many more. It is good to remember nice things as well as the horrible ones.
I hope you all have a good day and thanks for reading.
Cracked