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Author:  Brokenmediocrity [ Thu May 04, 2017 6:37 pm ]
Blog Subject:  Letters to Bulimia

Dear Bulimia,
You swallowed up baby anorexia in her infancy, barely past my infancy. You, a superbug of the psyche, turned an innocent weight loss scheme into an obsession, a little girl into self-hatred, then in all your full-blown malice, proceeded to take over half of my life. That’s right. I’ve given you over fourteen years. Thirty isn’t far away anymore. And yet, still you are here, strangling my thoughts in your sadistic rage. Food wasn’t the enemy; you are. And I hate you with the passion of a woman who’s lost thousands upon thousands of dollars to nothing. I despise you with all the rage of many years of debt, of time that will never be repaid, of the dignity of my soul you have thrown away.
I blamed myself so long for hosting your parasitic mind-control, but now I know: You are not me. I renounce this role and you’ve overstayed your welcome. I asked you many times to leave, and at most you gave me weeks of peace. And then you returned with a vengeance. But now I have decided to capture and resuscitate my own identity once and for all. Therefore, I will no longer be hosting your satanic horror. Only one of us can survive. The only way to freedom is to outlive you. This is a fact, not hyperbolic anger, nor anything less than certainty. I will throw your guts in the toilet with the rest of what you’ve taken from me. There will not be one trace left of you. But first I have to kill you.
These writings will mark your despise, and my beginning.
Sincerely,
An Anonymous Soon-To-Be-Former Bulimic, A Healthy Woman

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