"Who am i?"
You are who you are
Even if you don't know who that is

You are who you are
Even if you don't know how to define yourself

That doesn't meen you get to be someone else!

Embrece who you are
And soon you will know what you represent.

Inner knowledge will not come
From mimicking others
But only trough acceptance, growth and improvement.

S.M. 25 Feb 2014

"5 second illusion"
Only confidence comes
In little deceiving pieces
When restrictions are in order

Skipping prime base necessity
Brings a delusional comfort
That swipes that nagging guilt
Over and over and over
When is, this over?

Over thinking every meal
Exhausting life style
Amazing, the massive importance of a bite
Screaming forgotten unrelated insecurities!

Innocence lost over vicious cycles
Smiles crushed with rotten thoughts
Sleep lost in self-loathing hours of tears

Barricaded in the walls i built
Craving for the strenght to get up and leave

S.M. 25 Feb 2014

"Not fighting feelings anymore"
I feel like i'm in a oblivious state of mind
Mid way in my bumpy road
Yet i look back and i don't recognize the path
I look forward and thick fog - insecurities! blocks the views
I'm passing from numb to feeling,
Balance being crucial in this overwhelmed state

I'm kinda light headed with so much inflicting trough me
Trying willingly to show and come out

Anxious outbrusts
Terrifying...
But they bought light to the cracks exposed

As terrible this feels
I can myself to the world again

S.M. 20 Feb

"Pop Molly Bar"
This is
too crowded
too loud
and too closed
And they are
too drunk
too skinny
and way too fashionable

I really don't pop Molly...

In simple black dress
I can't compete with that!

Your mock grin sends over the edge
Paralised, i shut down
Oxygen becomes an unfullfiled necessity
Consuming thoughts fill in
Dancing with these overreacted stress
Breathing is certanly a problem!

Oh well, this is me
An insecure mess!

I really don't pop Molly...

S.M. 12 Feb 2014

"Emotions overload"
I've been hurt before
All the way pushed down
But instead of healing
I kept hurting until i became numb

In dark cycles i kept going
Light fading way
Too tired to steady myself
I swam far from secure bay

I think i'm coming back
But opening is hard
With the good comes also the bad
Tsunami waves that caught me off guard

Too emotional to even function
I relay on you
Too minimize the damage
And to walk me through

S.M. 12 Feb 2014