"5 second illusion"
Only confidence comes
In little deceiving pieces
When restrictions are in order

Skipping prime base necessity
Brings a delusional comfort
That swipes that nagging guilt
Over and over and over
When is, this over?

Over thinking every meal
Exhausting life style
Amazing, the massive importance of a bite
Screaming forgotten unrelated insecurities!

Innocence lost over vicious cycles
Smiles crushed with rotten thoughts
Sleep lost in self-loathing hours of tears

Barricaded in the walls i built
Craving for the strenght to get up and leave

S.M. 25 Feb 2014