I started painting on my walls for a fun way to express myself and to help me replace some habits I find somehow useless. (have no study what so ever in painting or drawing)
So I start out doing, pretty much, nothing specific at all.
The lines, the curves; are mostly all without thinking.
"abstract" art ? I think
But then, I start seeing things, I start using what I just created for greater purpose.
The fun and the sort of "meditation" out of this is stunning!
I realy enjoy it more than what I would have think of while starting.
What I find strange is:

I paint and paint and paint
lets say... about at step 5 or 6
I finally see in there something i'm proud of
something beautiful ( to my eyes)
I still have easily 12steps to create
but now...
I get scared.

"I've created something beautiful!
Do I have the capacity of making it more beautiful?
I could fail ...
I don't want to fail!
Hey man, no serisously I just can't screw this up.
What I have is so perfect at the moment.
Can I do it ?
Im... not sure; well, right now.
Lets wait. "

Therefor
whenever I reach a step that gives me a feeling of success,
the next steps usualy waits a couple of days;
Im scared of screrwing things up.
But,
I enjoy this new hobby a lot.
Still, I condamn myself to wait for thinking: I "might" screw things up.

What's your thoughts on this?

( P.s. I'm Fr
Greetings from Quebec )