Today has been much better than most of my days recently.
I woke up before my alarm at about 8:30am. I spent the day doing several loads of washing, commenting on here, doing some dishes and watching television. All very relaxing but mostly it was good because I wasn't so triggered. So all in all, a pretty uneventful day.
I have therapy in the morning. It feels like ages since I've seen him. I've been so amnestic of my time there over the past month or so. I have some writing to give to him that was done by some of the younger ones. I haven't been able to keep from dissociating in order to read what it says. At least I always feel a bit better coming out of therapy. I suppose it doesn't matter so much that I remember what happens, so long as I feel a bit better, it's all good.
One thing I do have to note is about another body memory I have. All my muscles of my lower abdomen suddenly spasm inwards as if I have been kicked there. Hard. Kind of like being winded but lower... I wonder what that's about...