CrackedGirl wrote:I went high on 20mg of fluoxetine but everyone is different. I have also been high on very small doses of sertraline (25mg). It is certainly a difficult balancing act...
My experiences were similar (I am not diagnosed bipolar, only mood disorder NOS aka kinda-maybe-bipolarish).
I would change within hours of taking a dose. I could not handle more than 50mg of sertraline because it made me extremely angry and impulsive. I was on 50 mg of sertraline for about a year and a half. During that time I lacked a brain-to-mouth filter, was mean/hostile to people I cared about, and my anxiety was much worse. In hindsight it did very little for my actual "depression." When I tried it again about a year later, the minimal dose had me cycling severely from day to day. My therapist at the time wanted me to be evaluated for BP, but what with my *ahem* elevated self-esteem, I essentially decided he could just shove it.
10/20mg of fluoxetine gave me crushing anxiety and an inability to be quiet or sit still, among other things. I also started going very rapidly between my ups and downs. It was terrifying. Just like with the sertraline, it only took hours for strange things to start happening.
I usually post in the avoidant personality forum. Impulsive, hostile, confrontational behavior and cockiness are sooooooo not me.
My experiences with SSRIs were so bizarre that I tried to convince myself that it was just in my imagination (or a placebo effect), but my family noticed too. Unfortunately my doctors and therapists at the time(s) treated me like a hypochondriac because I wasn't able to articulate myself as well back then.
Small amounts of caffeine can mess with me too (the caffeine in a whole cup of coffee will give me a day/night of euphoric feelings or anxiety/paranoia, followed by a few days of suicidal thinking) so I live a caffeine/chocolate-free lifestyle for the most part. It helps a lot. I know for sure it's caffeine that messes with me because I have experienced the same problems when I was unaware I had taken any--when I realized I had, I was relieved because I knew it was just a temporary brain hiccup.
I understand that caffeine withdrawal is hard on anyone (eg, making people groggy and irritable), but I've often wondered if suicidal thinking and hopelessness are normal parts of caffeine withdrawal for other people. Any thoughts?
I was always curious about how long it took in other people. This is a very interesting topic, Sociobid.Short version
: I'm not officially diagnosed bipolar, but my mood can change drastically within hours of taking very low doses of SSRIs.