I'm pretty happy! Last night at the gym, I weighed myself, and I lost weight!!
It's coming off slowly, but at least it's coming off. I hope by this time next year, I would have lost all 50 lbs of it.
It's just crazy, after a lifetime of roller coaster rides, 5 hospitalizations, and a billion med combinations, I am finally stable. I feel like I have either been cured, or never had bipolar to begin with.
I know both are not true, but that's how it feels. I have made so much progress..
Now all I need to focus on is my weight and finding a job (which I have been trying both for months). I'm only afraid that the stresses of working will make my symptoms flare up. When I work, I dissociate and have panic attacks. I have extreme anxiety before going to work. So I'm a bit afraid. Only time will tell, and my therapy is there, if I need to go back.