How's Your Mood Today?

Big hugs, Mirmei. You don't know how many times I was in this very same situation.

I've thought of antabuse too. But I know that when I get manic I just won't take it (I know it works 5 days), wait long enough and get plastered from here to Mars. I also realised I've been using drugs and drink as medication in depressive periods and as enhancer during mania. When I am stable – like now, despite all the terrible things happening to me nowadays – I can't finish one beer because it's just not enjoyable. I had a glass of wine today at lunch and it was like, whoa, this is what wine tastes like... I forgot. But I didn't forget yet the day I got hammered on whisky half a year ago, ended up throwing up five times before falling asleep, and then found out lamictal + hangover can equal a stroke. I fell to the floor in the bathroom and I was literally unable to stand up. This is not something I want to repeat ever again. And no, it didn't make me manic (I was manic already), it didn't calm me down, it made me tell some people some things they were not meant to know and it made me VERY sick.

Big hugs and sorry about making this all about me, me, me. I hope antabuse works for you, dear. Keeping gingers crossed for you to become stable and sober!

It's been 2 weeks on my diet and I lost some weight already I feel FANTASTIC!!

Jellybeanery, congrats! I know weight loss can be a struggle so it's great that you're seeing results already.

One week sober, one week! I feel amazing, very stable and happy.
My alcohol usage has been replaced with drugs, though, and since it's Friday my goal is to stay completely sober. Just soda and that's it.

^Thank you It is a struggle, but I'm slowly returning to normal weight. Also, I applaud you for staying sober.

Today is my birthday!! I feel that it's going to be a great day and my mood is extremely elevated.

^ Happy belated Birthday!

My mood isssss... pretty neutral! Feeling a bit more confident than usual.
I'm almost done weening off of Seroquel XR, so, my brain is a bit flustered, still. My moods seem to fluctuate sometimes, but not too bad. But, I can't seem to eat or sleep properly yet, so that's annoying. Only 50mg to go til I'm off of it

^Thank you

I guess my mood is also neutral. The only thing bothering me is I'm having a hard time finding a job. I plan to apply at a decent job near me and I really hope I get it.

I hope you get it too, Jellybeanery!

So completely low today. Am in so much emotional pain. That's all i feel... just pain.

Relieved that my van is finally getting repaired from an accident.

^I hope no one got hurt in the accident. Are you okay?

I got answers to so many questions this morning when my pdoc called.
We're switching lithium to depakine, because of my excessive drinking and fatigue. I'm thrilled and scared at the same time since I haven't been that stable recently but I'd still like to do the switch as soon as possible. I'll miss lithium, though, but it's for the better, especially for my kidneys.

I'll also be entering psychotherapy soon, but that means I have to google around 50 therapists because so far there is no database for the therapists in my area. The only requirements are that they specialize in psycho dynamic and trauma-based therapy, and my pdoc wishes that they're very experienced in their field. I'm excited about that as well.

Overall I'm feeling quite motivated. I feel like I have so much to prepare for and don't quite know where to start. I just visited the library and borrowed a book about psychotherapy types like my pdoc recommended. So I'll probably spend the day reading, and googling.