Hi. So, I'm writing in this forum because I'm pretty sure I have bipolar disorder. I'm just sick of it, I have never been to a psychologist because my parents think these are just normal mood swings every teenager have. I just recently have disappointed my parents in the worst way possible. I told them I wanted to drop university. Since I got in, I didn't want to study, there were weeks in which I sat on my desk very joyful with the topics I read, thinking how interesting my life would be in the future studying similar topics. But lately, things have gotten darker for me, and that feeling of wanting to be better just disappeared, which has made me stop studying. I have finals next week, and I haven't studied a bit since I just don't want to. I'm afraid. I don't know what to do. I feel so bad for being such a terrible student, daughter, and sister to my little brother that I just want to die. I need help, I can't keep with this anymore. What should I do? I know I will fail my exams, and I hate failing, but I just can't study, I don't want to try something I know I will fail in. I've never been this type of person, that's why I'm afraid of this kind of thoughts. Please, I'm begging for some wise words.
(Forgive my grammar mistakes, English isn't my native language)