Hi All! I rather need some feedback about something which is becoming a problem. I keep wanting to cover this with my pdoc( whom I like and trust) - but never seem to get a reaction. I am now a bit worried and hoping for some feedback or insight?
Quick background perspective if I may. I am now in my sixties and had Bipolar, as I now know it to be, since mid twenties. I come from a family that did not recognise mental health as a subject; it was a non subject; - so my behaviour over the years has been a mystery to them and barrier between us, to put it politely. Various episodes and hospitals later, I am where I am. Part of my personal signature has been long, very long episodes of reversing away from the world. Closed curtains, minimal contact general deterioration, closing down, very deep, S' moods etc. Collectively, I have described my condition as being one of 'Half-world'. It can go on for long periods. Finally if I am honest I have, during all of that time had a daily, ongoing relationship with 'S'.
So now. I have been diagnosed and treated for Bipolar 11 since beginning of 2015 following a dark period and apart from a long summer for which I received tremendous hospital support I have gradually got better to the point where I would honestly describe myself as stable and I have even been able to work.My pdoc visits have gone out from weekly+ to tri-monthly+. I also need to mention the forum which from the time of formal diagnosis and I found it, has been a place of constant, positive reassurance for me. I discovered for the first time that I was actually not alone! This was very new.
The problem I have is this. I have more and more recently experienced episodes of 'sleep' where I am abed for long periods - because I want to - I am not 'sleepy' or tired, I just want to be where I am. Yesterday was 24hrs. I am also fighting a desire to reduce contact and connection - which I cannot do. This cannot be right.. Surely, this should not be happening with active medication? Has anyone else experienced something of same? Any thoughts, reactions appreciated.Thankyou.