I'm getting to be too much of a burden for everyone around me. They're all sick of my crying all day, my screaming at 2am, my snappiness, and my inability to do anything right.
I loathe my pdoc right now because she says "I'm really doing fine." ###$ her.
I can't really be suicidal because I'm immortal. Sometimes I think about it, but then I realized I'm doomed to live forever so attempting would be ######6 stupid on my behalf. My father tried to exorcise me last night when the voices were really bad. It didn't work. I say I don't want to hurt myself, but then in fits I slam my head against doors and bite myself. I'm a really #######5 person and I have hurt the ones I love so much over the past few weeks.
I don't think I need to be hospitalized because they won't have any solutions and I'm not going to kill myself. Everyone I live with seems to think I need to be brought to the ER though.
I feel really calm right now, but for all I know in 5 minutes I'll be yelling at the ######6 cat, screaming at people who aren't there, and trying to scratch my eyeballs out.
The hospital will probably convince me I'm not immortal because that sounds crazy. When I get out I will try to kill myself, and fail, and wind up back in there.