Anyone ever feel like this

I have bipolar and have been diagnosed for 20 years. I have been off meds for a year, but i have a doctor's appointment next week to get back on my meds. The problem is I'm not feeling manic or depressed, i have been in both those phases before, what I'm going through now feels different. Im unable to concentrate, unable to communicate, it takes several minutes to react to what someone said to me in a conversation. It's as if I have lost my intelligence. I'm forgetful, I'm anxious, can't remember how to do the simplest tasks. Very antisocial and socially awkward. I feel stuck, emotionless. It's like I lost my instincts and basic reasoning skills.

I get like this sometimes. Don't worry, you haven't lost your intelligence, it's just a bit of brain fog. It can be improved with practice. My husband asks me maths questions for me to do in my head. Like for example if the fish tank is 120cm long how many feet is that?

I'm sorry you're feeling so out of whack right now. I've felt like what you're describing, completely numb and almost like I'm not in reality anymore. It's usually triggered by something though, and my pdoc blames it on my BPD (emptiness/numbness/dissociation). Maybe it is a BP thing that my doctor just doesn't want to deal with via meds because that's just so much extra work, but who knows? All I know is it usually goes away with me after anywhere from 30 minutes to a couple days. In the mean time I try to ground myself by engaging my senses, like petting my cats or eating food while really focusing on the taste, the texture, etc. and I find it helps me feel more in reality I guess, but it only works temporarily and I can't get my intelligence back.
Hope you feel better soon =)

The fish tank is 4 feet long.

I'm getting like you. I call it old age.

hardknocklife wrote:I have bipolar and have been diagnosed for 20 years. I have been off meds for a year, but i have a doctor's appointment next week to get back on my meds. The problem is I'm not feeling manic or depressed, i have been in both those phases before, what I'm going through now feels different. Im unable to concentrate, unable to communicate, it takes several minutes to react to what someone said to me in a conversation. It's as if I have lost my intelligence. I'm forgetful, I'm anxious, can't remember how to do the simplest tasks. Very antisocial and socially awkward. I feel stuck, emotionless. It's like I lost my instincts and basic reasoning skills.

You just described the way I feel...
I'm with medication but this is not 'me'. I used to live with emotion and now I feel like a robot or having something that commands my brain. My eyes are sad, my smile is fake. My words are nonsense and I feel like I've lost my hole rationality. It's like there is something that turns off the circuits of my brain and I feel so stupid sometimes. I go to college but I can't pay attention to classes. For me, voices are just noise to my brain. I hate being much time around people.

So, I can really understand the way you feel. Talk about it to your doctor. I think I'm gonna do the same. Maybe we just need to have something motivational to fight for.
We need something to wake us up.