So I've had a bit of a strange couple of months, hence I've been pretty quiet on here!
First, I quit my job as a bipolar researcher- without another job to go to. I could not stand to be around so many 'experts' who knew so little about the lived experience of bipolar, and who were not keen to learn. It has probably been one of the most frustrating experiences of my life.
Then just a week later, I got married and then had an amazing honeymoon. Then I got back and was offered a job at another university, which I took. I am due to move to another city to take this job up in a few weeks.
Now in theory I have lots to be happy about (and don't get me wrong- I am!); A new job, new husband, new house etc, but I am so wrought with anxieties about my new situation that my mood is really fluctuating quite badly and I have been very low at some points. I hate change. I even freak out when my therapist changes the flowers in her therapy room (literally, it has given me panic attacks!). Now everything is changing and I'm not handling it well.
Does change and uncertainty affect you too? How do you deal with it? I'm trying to grin and bear it but I feel awful
and am so scared it will make me ill.