no character

anagram wrote:

LastMatchLeft wrote:YES ! u are great. i knew my OG post was adequate for my problem.
ill not forget what you said here. im alaways in seek of approval but in fact ,who needs it. i know my intentions. ill just do it alone,and its not that bad.

Glad I could be of help.

but emotions are not good too,when u let urself to them...how do you control it ?

That's part of being schizo... Not really something you choose. If you can't do it, you have to work around it.

for example i cant handle the emotion when someone makes me a compliment, i feel like they are mocking me or talking with irony

Well that's paranoia. I suppose there are many ways to treat it, but the only safe one would be psychotherapy. Or meditation perhaps could help. I like the idea a lot, but I'm too erratic to be able to do it. If you can manage to do it, regardless of what problems you have, or even which kind of meditation you choose, I think it's a great idea.

LastMatchLeft wrote:

anagram wrote:

LastMatchLeft wrote:YES ! u are great. i knew my OG post was adequate for my problem.
ill not forget what you said here. im alaways in seek of approval but in fact ,who needs it. i know my intentions. ill just do it alone,and its not that bad.

Glad I could be of help.

but emotions are not good too,when u let urself to them...how do you control it ?

That's part of being schizo... Not really something you choose. If you can't do it, you have to work around it.

for example i cant handle the emotion when someone makes me a compliment, i feel like they are mocking me or talking with irony

Well that's paranoia. I suppose there are many ways to treat it, but the only safe one would be psychotherapy. Or meditation perhaps could help. I like the idea a lot, but I'm too erratic to be able to do it. If you can manage to do it, regardless of what problems you have, or even which kind of meditation you choose, I think it's a great idea.

Tried meditation but didnt work for me. meditated for a week for 1 hour a day. I felt like it confused me more. plus nowadays i rarely am alone in my house. and its embarrasing meditating and someone of family opening the door and seeing u.
anyway i should open a new post but ill write it here. yesterday was the best day of the year for me . i was at school for a presantation , i didnt get bored or anxious, i got along with friends ,laughing ,talking etc. seems like a normal thing but it was great for me.
but when i got home,it was like something wants to pull me down. giving me disturbing thoughts. thoughts of that 15 yrs old boy that bugs me on the street and i dont know how to act.mocking me infront of others,others thinking look at that loser getting mocked by a 15 yrs old.took me a long time to get to sleep last night.i still am thinking about those things now ,11 am.. what is this . .

i was at school for a presantation , i didnt get bored or anxious, i got along with friends ,laughing ,talking etc. seems like a normal thing but it was great for me.

but when i got home,it was like something wants to pull me down. giving me disturbing thoughts. thoughts of that 15 yrs old boy that bugs me on the street and i dont know how to act.mocking me infront of others,others thinking look at that loser getting mocked by a 15 yrs old.took me a long time to get to sleep last night.i still am thinking about those things now ,11 am.. what is this . .

LastMatchLeft wrote: ok u understood the situation ... but what do you mean setting the bar just little to high....and what counts as character by any standart....
i dont know why but i didnt get at all what you mean...if u can rewrite it ?

JohnnyBlaze wrote:What I mean is that you DO have character! Having character is when there's something unique about you, something that makes people remember you. It's that person who blandly agrees with everything, who doesn't speak up, who doesn't rock the boat once in a while; they're the ones without character. You, on the other hand, have character. So get out there and enjoy that character!