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Postby Socialretard » Sun Feb 12, 2012 4:38 am

no friends? I dont, it used to bother me a lot and was very shameful about it. I guess it has been so long that i just dont care anymore. Even when it bothered me it never made me want to go and try to seek out friendships. I just dont know how to connect w/ others, it is beyond my understanding. I find most people extremely annoying and self absorbed, so i guess i am quick to judge people. On the other hand people dont show an interest in getting to know me so i just assume they are judging me as well.

I like my alone time so i guess it is all for the best. Maybe im schizoid i dont know anymore. I thought i related more toward the AvPD spectrum but im not so sure now.
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Postby tine » Sun Feb 12, 2012 11:56 am

I think if you live without something for long enough, you grow accustomed to it in a way. I know I have. Eventually you just stop expecting anything different. It hurts less and there's not as much disappointment.
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Postby tlepS drawkcaB » Sun Feb 12, 2012 12:14 pm

Zero here aswell. Literally for the same reasons you mentioned aswell socialretard which i find a bit of a suprise. It's seems that post of yours was pulled straight from my head.

I've always been able to make acquaintances with people easily, its just I dont bother letting it get to the friend stage because i've never really seen the fun in socialising. Always found being around people more stressful than fun.

The only thing that i feel im missing out on is the whole girlfriend/wife thing.
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Postby shnbwmn » Sun Feb 12, 2012 3:20 pm

tlepS drawkcaB wrote:The only thing that i feel im missing out on is the whole girlfriend/wife thing.

Same ...
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Postby Existentialist » Sun Feb 12, 2012 6:34 pm

It depends on what you mean by freinds. I have acquinatenances at work I am comfortable talking to. I have never developed emotional bonds, however, and have social anxiety. I am usually not comfortable around people. Obviously, I have never been married or had any intimate relationships. I never understood how people do it. I wouldn't call myself a social retard. Rather, an emotional retard often scared of my own shadow when it comes to anything intimate or personal.
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Postby alwaysalone » Sun Feb 12, 2012 7:10 pm

Right now I can count the people I'd call a friend on one hand. Sure there are people I was friends with in high school that I'd be happy to see or talk to, but I haven't talked to most of them in over a year. Even the people I would call a friend, I haven't talked to any of them in at least a month or two. I guess an AVPD definition of friendship is a little different than most...
I always feel like, if the person wanted to spend time with me or talk to me, they would. But I don't want to bother them if they don't. Obviously, if they aren't contacting me they don't want to be around me. Which I know in my head doesn't make any sense because the phone works two ways, but I still can't get myself to talk to anyone.
And I would like to make friends, but at the same time I feel like I just won't fit in. I never do. Sure people might like me for a while, but they always go away. They always stop talking to me eventually. I always feel like people are either too shallow/self-obsessed/celebrity obsessed and I don't want to hang out with them because we don't have much in common, or they are very smart people who know way more than I do about school and the things we might both be interested in, which just makes me feel like I'm not good enough and like I don't know anything and that I just pretend to be smart about some things, but really I don't know anything. So either way, I end up alone. I honestly can't even remember the last time I hung out with anyone, or talked to someone on facebook, or texted a friend, or did anything like that.
Every single weekend since school started almost a month ago, I've spent at home alone while my parents went out with their friends. My parents have a way better social life than I do. Then of course there's my sister. She's skinny and tall and everyone thinks she's so perfect and she has all these friends, and she keeps inviting me to lunch. But not to be nice to me, just so she doesn't have to eat alone. She only talks to me because she feels bad for me that I don't have any friends.
But honestly, who would want to spend time with me? My idea of a good time is watching a tv show and knitting. No one wants to spend time with someone who does that. Except my internet friends, and I don't even know their names.
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Postby thewho » Mon Feb 13, 2012 1:14 am

Of what I consider to be a friendship requirement, I have none. I had two but unintentionally pushed them away and they were the last two left, so.

I wish it didn't bother me, but it does. Not that I don't have a lot of friends, if I had just one good one I'd be just fine. But I find life extremely self-limiting without friends.
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Postby Itachi » Mon Feb 13, 2012 3:36 pm

Last friend was at middle school, never had one after. I generally look at people as inferior beings, with few exceptions, so it wouldn't be possible anyway.
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Postby ncsoftlover » Mon Feb 20, 2012 10:16 am

The Maximum amount of friends I had was back when I was in elementary school, I'd say I had about 8 or 9 that I constantly talk to. Then in high school, it's reduced to 3, now that I'm in university, all these people I used to know just drifted to somewhere else and I really have no one anymore, and I don't see this situation changing anytime soon, I used to be anxious and ashamed of this fact like you did, but I guess I just because numb over time, so I don't really care anymore.
I don't think it's that important to bind ourselves to a specific disorder, they are completely artificial groupings anyway, so what we all have, are a bunch of symptoms, some of them overlap with others, some of them unique to ourselves.
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Re: Who has....

Postby trezza » Mon Feb 20, 2012 5:20 pm

You're still here!? Far out!

Dunno if you remember me.. I wouldn't say I'm fixed but I've made some progress since I was last here, which I consider my low point.

So yeah I've been getting my ass drunk fairly often all I have to do is go somewhere with my friend and maybe have a few drinks before hand so that I'm drunk before we get to wherever it is we're going and then i can talk to people. Still no girlfriend or anything, no real progress in that area but meh.

I turned 20 1 and a half months ago and I feel since then I've improved a bit, still really shy when I'm sober but I feel more motivated to go out and it's been happening more often.

26th of January is Australia day, I went out on the night to watch the fireworks, got real wasted, next day some chick had added me on facebook and i still don't know who she is, my mate said he introduced me to her but I don't recall that happening, apparently i just said hi and then wandered off. When I'm drunk I don't even have women in mind which is probably a good thing as it doesn't make me seem desperate or creepy or anything.

Anywho just checking in to see who's still around.

And for my parting words... "Get drunk, I don't give a rat's ass if you don't like alcohol, after the 3rd or 4th beer i don't even taste it any more then things start to get fun."
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