Quests you might benefit from spending an evening over here.http://wildminds.ning.com/
Its an excellent resource for maladaptive daydreaming. You will see me asking the same question over there as I did here. Is this "just" severe self deserting avpd for at least some people anyway? When or if you read the forum I would be interested in your views.
Do you have avpd/MD
do you have avpd AND MD.
do you have MD
Im just curious to see where/if you think it fits with your avpd status.
So far I have been given the suggestion by venus that I am an avpd (self deserting) who specialises in MD. There is an interesting link there I think and Im curious to see who else has the big thunderbolt of recognition.
Here is one description from the forum(from the author of the site)
"It's hard to explain, but there's not a moment that I drift off to daydream. I'm walking around in a CONSTANT state of daydream & ONLY do external activities while daydreaming. Pulling myself out to think about something else is very difficult & only lasts for a few seconds. I'm constantly (as in every single minute) drifting right back. I'm daydreaming while doing this. That other world is always in the background & taking up the majority of my brainpower. On top of that, when I'm lying around I'll just daydream. I lie down to daydream for several hours a day, here & there. There are periods of external inspiration that will distract me out of it, and they feel SO GOOD.....but they're very short-lived. The only things I can do are the things that I can do while daydreaming. Consequently I'm only ever working at a small fraction of my capabilities. That's why it takes me so long to accomplish anything & I still have mail that has gone unopened for years, for example. Make sense?
and here is another from the author as well
For the past 30 years I've been living in an alternate reality that has completely taken over my life. Instead of fading into the past, it became my reality. The outside world faded & faded, and I've been fighting to reclaim it. Long past the point of being a joyful fantasy, it's become an addiction that I have unlimited access to. I have no self control. I can only distract myself out of it. I'm like an alcoholic with an unlimited supply of booze everywhere I go. When I do it too much I feel sick & dazed, yet I can't stop. I've stepped out into traffic & almost gotten myself killed more times than I can count. I've gotten better & am struggling to find footing in the outside world. In the meantime, I want to reach out.
This condition has a name. It's called Maladaptive Daydreaming. I spent years feeling alone and scared, like I was the only one on the planet that could possibly be going through this. I felt like a freak. I was completely ashamed and scared to death anyone would find out. It's time to end that. We're not freaks. Our brains work differently. Maladaptive Daydreamers lead unique and enriching lives. We have wondrous gifts and gut-wrenching struggles. For the good and the bad, this condition takes a lot of strength and energy to live with. I refuse to be ashamed, and I don't want anyone else to be either.(end of article quote)
When you look at the description of self deserting avpds and their use of fantasy there are echoes aren't there/are there? ....in particular with this symptom of self deserting avpd-
"More and more, they cannot tolerate being themselves and seek
to completely withdraw from their own conscious awareness, an existential abnegation
of selfhood...some neglect themselves physically and psychologically etc etc"
Just wondering is it the same thing for some people anyway. I dont have a firm view yet. Still on the fence.