This is copied from "Ever feel". It starts off depressing, but keep reading:
Sometimes I feel the same way too. Just last week I was pretty much resigned to my fate of eventually dying miserable and alone. That week I had a phone call with my mom and she could tell I was feeling really really down (I didn't mention I was feeling suicidal)) and she tried to encourage me.
The whole time I was thinking, "I've tried all I can! I've read what at least 30 self help books. I've been to psychologists and they didn't know how to help me. And I've just read on a couple of reputable websites that Avoidant Personality Disorder is mostly "fixed" (unchanging) and "not curable" (I've since seen websites that say this is the 'old view'. That psychiatrists have recently found that AvPD is treatable
with the right interventions.) "What's the point?" I kept thinking, "This isn't a life! I don't wanna live like this! But i can't hurt my mom--I'll just wait till after she passes away after a good long life and then when I'm 70 or 80 I can finally blow my f***ing brains out and get it over with. It'll be a long miserable wait, but at least my mom will be happy, right?" Towards the end of the call mom told me to keep looking for things that would help. Don't give up.
After we finished talking I got on the internet and started looking for anything that might be useful--all the while just knowing
I wasn't going to find anything. Until...I found a book--not just a few pages, nut a chapter, but an entire book on Avoidant Personality Disorder. The description said it will actually show you, step by step
, how to treat your AVPD--not just social anxiety disorder like every other book I've found. I don't know if its some big ultimate cure but at least its something
! Even if the techniques only improve symptoms by 50%, at least that's better than the hell we live in now! It just came out last week. Its called The Essential Guide to Overcoming Avoidant Personality Disorder
by Martin Kantor, MD. (I ordered it on Amazon.com (its $44.00
US!) [EDITED March 13, 2010: PLEASE READ MY BOOK REVIEW BEFORE GOING TO THIS SITE! (Its 7 OR 8 posts after this one)] http://www.amazon.com/Essential-Overcoming-Avoidant-Personality-Disorder/dp/0313377529/ref=sr_1_1?ie=UTF8&s=books&qid=1268069494&sr=8-1
[Edited March 9, 2010: When you get on the site remember to scroll down the product page to read a full summary of the book. (it takes a while, its a pretty long page)]
So now, I'm no longer resigned to my fate, now I have hope
. Now, we can't
give up. Even if this book isn't everything we hope for, we can't
. There are researchers working on this everyday looking for new techniques that could help. And we have people who love us who want to see us succeed, not just barely getting by waiting for the end. So, we can't
P.S. A book that helped me years ago
when I was feeling depressed and hopeless was Feeling Good the New Mood Therapy
. I wouldn't be here if wasn't for that book. It showed me that things aren't always as dark as they seem. (I should've been reading it last week, huh?
.) It really helped alot. Try it, it might help you too. Good luck everyone!