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PaperHeart wrote:"lonely loners" is how a Avpd trait is described- desiring company but so fearful of the surrounding stimuli its hard or near impossible to initiate. Without a job (for many years) and without friends (for many years) the only people I talk to are my family and nothing discussed with them is even close to what I'm thinking or feeling. Lately the loneliness and perpetual boredom has grown into a hideous all consuming depression which has turned my prior nihilistic state into one of despair and irrational mental chatter. Even to get to the making of this post its taken several days (have pre-written several posts but all were so desperate and ill-forged it only caused further anxiety and self-loathing) whats got me here tonight is a hardy dose of alcohol and some degree of social explosions (thats what I call them- the times when your not robotic discussing the weather or whats for dinner but what needs to be spoke about- thought and feelings) <- all of that could well be deleted....and the post to the point-
PaperHeart wrote:How does someone who doesn't work, or go to a activities club or....pretty much never ever interacts with people...EVER, find a close friend?
PaperHeart wrote:"lonely loners" is how a Avpd trait is described- desiring company but so fearful of the surrounding stimuli its hard or near impossible to initiate. Without a job (for many years) and without friends (for many years) the only people I talk to are my family and nothing discussed with them is even close to what I'm thinking or feeling. Lately the loneliness and perpetual boredom has grown into a hideous all consuming depression which has turned my prior nihilistic state into one of despair and irrational mental chatter. Even to get to the making of this post its taken several days (have pre-written several posts but all were so desperate and ill-forged it only caused further anxiety and self-loathing) whats got me here tonight is a hardy dose of alcohol and some degree of social explosions (thats what I call them- the times when your not robotic discussing the weather or whats for dinner but what needs to be spoke about- thought and feelings) <- all of that could well be deleted....and the post to the point- How does someone who doesn't work, or go to a activities club or....pretty much never ever interacts with people...EVER, find a close friend?
FreakOfTheDemonDoll wrote:I have so many things wrong with me and people say that I'm fine, then if I'm fine than why can't I get along with others?
inverse wrote:I can "get along with others" - in the beginning - big flipping deal.
inverse wrote:Therefore, I think we must be mindful of what words and phrases we allow ourselves to think of and believe about ourselves, because it may not be true. There is no saying who you might be OK with/get along with if the right person came along.
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