by tanoshi » Tue Aug 19, 2014 7:52 pm
Isn't hallucination sort of a defence mechanism that result from among other things, a lack of stimulation? Also, you living isolated like that, maybe you are okay with it now, but maybe in 5 years from now you will be so absolutely sick with it that you will go crazy, climbing on the walls, biting your nails, being on the edge, trapped in your self-made prison, feeling a strong urge to get outside of that ######6 place asap. I got a "mild" form of that after staying inside my apartment without leaving for a couple of weeks. The first few days I enjoyed it alot. but after a while my mind and body had become so dulled and slow from this sedentary isolation with lack of stimulation. I may have a low tolerance for it compared to you, but in the long run who knows what could happen? I don't think we can predict such things.
By the way, you feel like two completely different people when replying to that image and talking about your job interview compared to your other posts. How do you manage a job interview, talking to strangers (with no pressure I know) but actively avoids even seeing other human beings as you walk down the streets once in a blue moon?